We are still here
We are still here
Miriam Sainnawap, author of this reflection, is Co-coordinator of MCC’s Indigenous Neighbours program. She is Oji-Cree from Kingfisher Lake First Nation in northwestern Ontario. Her reflection is prompted by the story of Tina Fontaine, a 15-year-old Indigenous girl who was murdered in Winnipeg in 2014. The white man charged with her death was acquitted in February 2018 because of insufficient evidence. Prior to her death, Tina was in the care of Children and Family Services. Tina’s death galvanized attention on the reality of missing and murdered Indigenous women and girls in Canada and led to the establishment in 2015 of a National Inquiry into Missing and Murdered Indigenous Women and Girls.
When I heard the trial verdict “not guilty” in the death of Tina Fontaine, I burst out in tears of grief and anger. That anger inspired me to write.
That night, I couldn’t sleep. Every time I closed my eyes, I could imagine Tina and her aspirations, dreams and hopes.
I also saw myself in her, not to undermine her tragic death. Like Tina, I grew up in a remote community (in Northwestern Ontario). Like Tina, I was 15 years old, forced to leave home and live in an unwelcoming urban centre, so that I could fulfill my education opportunities. I quickly had to learn to adjust to white-dominated society and speak in English.
I could be Tina.
As a young Indigenous woman in Canadian society, I quickly learned my worth is devalued and my voice is suppressed.
Tina’s case raises major issues related to the treatment of Indigenous youth in this society. The systems in place that are meant to serve and protect do not have my best interests and do not reflect my tradition and values.
No justice exists unless truth is told. Reconciliation does not exist now.
Let’s get to the point. The current mess we find ourselves in is our reflection of our society. Canadian society has yet to begin and name the systematic injustice, racism and privilege. Let alone acknowledge whose land they reside and stand on.
Good intentions are not enough. Apologies cannot fix the long-standing broken promises. Paternalist attitudes cannot help save Indigenous youth. Imposed livelihood solutions cannot empower our communities. Colonial systems cannot serve us.
Indigenous people have known, for far too long, that injustice has been a way of life. Violence, forced assimilation and abuse. Those grievances felt over the many generations of the past, exist today and go on into the future.
The goal of colonization has been to get rid of my ancestors and wipe out my nation. Over the years, the attempted assimilative policies have threatened our very existence and survival as the people of the land. They have denied our humanity.
Colonization is costing the lives of Indigenous peoples, my community and my people. What price must we pay? What price must young Indigenous women pay?
Tina’s life was cut short. She didn’t get the chance to live her dreams. She will continue to remind us we need to do better as a society. We need to stand up for justice and the time is Now.
Indigenous people matter. Indigenous young women matter. We deserve equitable and fair access to justice.
We have dreams and hopes for ourselves and our communities. We love our families and friends. We attend universities, drink our cappuccinos like you and go to ceremonies. We work constantly to make our daily lives better.
We are resilient. We are the people our ancestors prayed for and hoped for the future. We are still here.